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The Author’s Last Tale – Part II

03 Friday Jul 2026

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Courtney Webb

Back on the trail, Yaya and Shi’ma had completed a good two-hour ride. The horse, like the smart girl she was, had nudged her owner when Yaya, like a school kid out at recess, kept wanting to ride. Shi’ma gently reminded that it was time to turn around and go home.

Yaya had heard there was a natural spring out here. Always the nosey one, she wanted to investigate. Still, Shi’ma would have her way.

Finally, Yaya gave in. “Okay, girl. You’re the boss. It’s probably time for some lunch for both of us.” Reluctantly, the detective turned the horse around and they were on their way home. She vowed to come back the next day and find that spring. Scooter would be with her dad until late afternoon on Sunday, so she would have the time.

At the New Life! Conference center, Hillary had left her friend Pam in her room to have a needed nap. She reasoned that the excitement of the trip, being away from her husband in a strange place, all of it, was a bit much for Pamela who was your traditional housewife trying to learn to write after the kids had left home. She sighed as she closed her friend’s door and headed back to her own room.

Hillary did not feel tired. She had slept well the night before. The conference rooms were as advertised and very quiet. No, not tired, she was still a bit keyed up after the conversations with her friend and a feeling of disquiet regarding their featured writing guest speaker. There was something…

She got to her room and pulled out her laptop and keyed in the conference WIFI code. She pulled up her Google search engine.

I bet Reginald Knight isn’t even his real name, she thought ruefully to herself.

“Ha! She laughed out loud. It took a little digging, but the results were gratifying, Reginald Jones, of Derbyshire, U, son of a milliner and housekeeper. “There you go, Reginald, or more like Reggie when you are home. Very blue collar, ordinary background. Get out!”

She was pleased with herself and happy with the little gossipy bits of information that she would be happy to share with Pamela later that day. Hoping that the bits of information would cheer her friend up. She sort of doubted it. Still….

Thinking back to her conversation with Pam, in truth, she had never read any of Knight’s novels and he was pretty famous and well known on both sides of the pond. She had promised herself to do that before this trip. But, with her inbox always more full than her outbox, she just hadn’t had time to do it.

So, settling into her bed, bunches of pillows behind her back, computer in front and pen and paper to the side; she started doing a scroll search of Reggie’s more popular novels. As she read, her eyes got bigger and bigger. She could not believe what she was seeing.

Her head began to reel. How could he? That bastard. Her agent. That swine. She had been submitting articles and manuscripts to him for years. Always the same response.

“Sorry, darling. Just not exactly what they are looking for. But, please keep submitting.”

And she had. Now and then, here and there, one of either her short stories, poems, articles would get accepted. She would dance a jig of joy and happily buy drinks all around her local pub to celebrate her success. In addition to the women’s writer’s group, she hung out at a local pub where a bunch of sideline Hollywood writers went to drown their sorrows or cheer their successes.

But still, year after year, the big fish; the full-time writer’s job, the publishing contract seemed to elude her. After one more try and one more failure, it was back to copy editing and ghost writing for other, much better-known writers than herself. They got the glory and she got…a paycheck that paid the bills. Neither too much nor too little. Just enough to keep body and soul together and to ensure she could/would keep writing and keep those cleaned up manuscripts coming.

However, now Hillary was reading recent updates on Reginald Knight and his lengthy list of hit mystery novels. She scrolled through synopsis after synopsis and the anger that was always with her, pushed down inside, began to simmer and stir and like lava in a volcano, rise to the surface. That fucking bastard agent of hers. Willie Smythe, Willie Simpleton she called him to herself. She had sworn over and over again to get another agent but hadn’t gotten around to it. Plus, agents were really hard to get in the Hollywood area. You had to know someone who knew someone.

But here it was, novel after novel. She recognized the plot, the theme, the setting, the beginning action, the characters; all of it. These were her novels. One after another after another after another. Her novels with that bastard Reginald Knight’s name plastered all over them. That phony, that fraud. And the irony was, here she had to laugh, a dark laughter. Reginald Jones aka Knight, very probably had absolutely no idea of who she was.

Well, she was the one her agent Willie Smythe, who was also coincidently English, had sold out for thirty pieces of silver. She laughed again. “Except,” she said to the room, “it was a lot more the thirty pieces, wasn’t it. You dirty bastard.”

Hillary lived in the Echo Park area of Los Angeles. The down-in-the-heel next door neighbor of Hollywood. Not Bev Hills, not Hollywood Hills; neither. Next door neighbor to Silver Lake. Absolutely nothing glamourous going on here.

However, Hillary was not from LA. She was in fact from Tucson. Had graduated from high school here. She was even somewhat familiar with the area where they were staying, coming here as a kid and teen to Girl Scout camps when that was a thing. She still knew a few people from school. An old boyfriend. Her parents had long since moved to Florida to be with her sister, husband and kids. The good daughter. The one who didn’t chase ridiculous dreams of being a Hollywood writer into bankruptcy.

Hillary had been in a red rage. Now, she calmed down and the rage turned to cold, blue ice. She called an old number. A distant boyfriend she had still kept in touch with over the years.

He picked up when she called.

“Hi, it’s me. I need something.”

That night they had dinner in the cafeteria room. The conference people had actually put on a good spread, baked fish and roasted chicken with all the sides. Even Reginald Knight had agreed to dine with the little people.

Hillary sat next to Reginald. It was okay, she was younger than a lot of women in the group and in far better shape. She knew he had been making eyes at her throughout the conference. She had pulled out a thin, low cut red tube dress with little sparkly things on it.

She didn’t even know why she had packed it. “Just in case,” she had told her dog who gave her a funny look. “You never know!” He still looked puzzled.

She put on her only real push-up bra. She pushed her boobs up deliberately so that the nipples were almost showing at the top. She pushed in some Kleenex underneath to preserve the effect. Putting her makeup on carefully, she applied candy apple red lip gloss on her lips, light perfume, and pulled up her hair.

She made a point to not only sit next to Reginald but to laugh at all his jokes and made sure his wine glass was always full. Several times during dinner, she allowed her left hand to roam under the tablecloth to his thigh. She lightly stroked her fingers up and down his leg. It didn’t take more than a minute before he had grabbed her hand and put it firmly over his crotch.

Hillary nearly spit out a mouthful of wine but managed to swallow and still keep a smile on her face. As the dinner neared to a close, she pulled out her purse and got out the small note she had already written back in her room. “Meet me outside, by the picnic tables. 10:00 pm.” She felt sure he would show up.

After dinner, Hillary raced back to her room, ignored her friend Pam completely who was trying to say something when she rushed by, and dashed into her room. She hurriedly pulled off the dress, keeping the push-up bra in place and gathered some things in a smaller overnight bag, changed her shoes and locked the door to her room. From the closet, she pulled out one small black box. Very carefully, she placed the box, right side up in the bottom of her bag. Additionally, she added a partially opened bottle of champagne and two plastic glasses. She had already scoped out the various hall cameras and opted for the route out the side door that she knew had the fewest cameras.

The picnic tables were conveniently located close to the parking lot. As she had expected, Reginald’s flashy baby blue jaguar with silver trim was close by. It was a convertible and the top was currently up and in place.

She sat on the top of one of the tables and waited breathlessly for her nighttime visitor. Right on time, Reginald came lumbering up to the table.

“There you are you little vixen. Man, I have been looking at you this whole time. What a mouthful!” He smiled broadly and sat down next to her. “I couldn’t believe you would really be interested.” His hand was on her arm, moving up to her shoulder.

Hillary controlled the deep feeling of revulsion she felt for the man. The smile was plastered on her face. “Well, you are a world-famous author and very, very rich,” she cooed.

“Yes, I am,” he readily agreed. “And very, very horny.” The hand moved from her shoulder and plunged down to her right breast. He pushed back the small amount of fabric separating her nipple from the night air and started to massage it. “Oh, God,” he groaned staring at her breast.

She could see that his mouth was quickly lowering to her breast. Softly, she pushed him away. “Not here,” she whispered, “I’m married. They have cameras.”

Reginald whipped his head around to peer back at the compound. “How about my room, your room?”

“Too many cameras, don’t want to be on national TV or anything do you?”

Reginald shrugged his shoulders. Hillary was sure he wouldn’t care. Good for publicity and all that.

“No, I’ve got a great spot. Very quiet. Wonderful view of the desert, the stars and the moon. Very romantic.”

“I don’t know,” he started. Hillary stood up and rubbed herself up close to him and paid special attention to his nether regions for a full minute. She knew that after a little of that, if she had asked him to take a rocket ship to the moon, the answer would have been yes.

Quite convinced, he pulled the car keys out of his pocket, chirped the car and they both skipped lightly to the vehicle. Reginald got the car started. Once they were out of the parking lot and out a range of the cameras, Hillary insisted he lower the convertible top. She had undone her hair, so it blew in the wind. She unbuttoned her top and pulled it off; then pushed her breasts up and out of the bra.

Reginald nearly swerved off the road but managed to stay in control. She directed him to a little culvert and tiny road off the small asphalt road they were on. Reginald parked the car and she got her blanket out of her bag, the champagne and glasses. She poured the wine and offered him glass after glass. She had taken her bra completely off and he massaged her breasts with a glazed look in his eye.

Finally, the heavy dinner, numerous glasses of wine on top of each other and the sexual excitement was all too much and Reginald leaned back on the blanket and fell asleep.

Hillary shook him once to be sure he was asleep. The man snored loudly. She put her bra back on and her shirt, buttoning it up to the top. In the bag was a pair of leather gloves. She put these on. She unbuttoned Reginald’s pants, which was a trial as he was so fat.

She pulled them down a bit, was shocked to see his ruby red boxers in silk, emblazoned with scantily clad chorus girls dancing around. “Ass,” she mumbled to herself.

Carefully, she reached inside her bag and pulled out the black box. She shook the box a couple of times. Then, slowly, pulling the lid off the box somewhat, she pulled up Reginald’s boxers and tipped the content of the box into his shorts. Working quickly now, she pulled up his boxers and zipped up his pants. She grabbed the bottle of champagne, the two plastic glasses and placed them back in her bag.

Leaving the key in the car ignition, she pulled out her water bottle, took a big swig and started on her moonlight hike back to the conference. She was an experienced hiker, so she was sure she could cover the few miles quickly and be back at the center before sunrise and before the conference staff were up milling around.

Hillary checked her watch; she got back to the conference grounds in the early am hours. She knew which doorway to use, the one with no cameras. She had left a small sliver of bark in the door lock so that it would open from the outside. She slipped back into her room, got into her pajamas and fell into a deep and restful sleep.

The next morning, Yaya got herself up, made coffee, washed her face and got herself ready for her ride. Since it was definitely getting hotter outside, she knew that both she and Shi’ma would appreciate an early start.

Although Yaya was not on duty this weekend, she normally kept a satellite phone with her just in case of emergencies, either from the front desk or from Vince with some problem concerning Katie. And, as always, trail ride or not, she kept her Smith and Wesson in one saddle bag. Also, just in case.

Shi’ma and Yaya had been on the trail for maybe an hour when the satellite phone rang. Irritated, Yaya was tempted to turn the thing off. Still, she knew she would never make captain if she acted like that, plus, it could also be Vince calling with some problem.

“Damn it,” she said. She was still looking forward to finding that free-running stream.

“Yaya,” she replied.

“Detective?” It was one of the desk sergeants from the station. Granger, she thought his name was.

“Yes, this is Yaya.”

The sergeant sounded relieved. Even with the satellite phone, the reception was a bit choppy with the close mountain range. “We’ve had a report of a missing person out in your area. Writer guy went out in his jaguar last night into the desert and hasn’t been seen since. Are you are home or out on your —–ride?”

“I am on my ride sergeant, give me the locate where he was last seen and where they think he went.”

“Texting you the info, Ma’am. It might be close to where you are.” The sergeant sounded hopeful.

Yaya looked at the pinned map when it came through on the phone. “Okay, I got it. Yes, it is somewhat close to where I am now. Where did they think he went?”

“They think he drove north as that is where the tire tracks go.”

“Okay, Sergeant. I will follow up and also,——there was some interference….You will have to tell me when I get back how you knew where I was riding…..”

“Yes—-” The phone buzzed at her. She disconnected.

“Okay, Shi’ma. We are on duty now, and we’s got to follow this here map. No more fooling around the rivers and ponds. Okay, girl.” Yaya pinned her current location on the map, pinned the location of the conference center and saw there was a tiny little thread running northbound from the center. That looked very much like the road the writer would have taken for his moon-light stroll. She turned Shi’ma to their left and gave her a little kick to get her into trot mode. They probably needed to hurry.

Forty-five minutes later, Yaya had found the road north of the conference center and started riding northbound. Within a few minutes, she spotted the baby blue sports car parked off the road and turned Shi’ma toward the car. Soon she spotted a very large man, lying on a blanket near the car. She couldn’t tell if he was alive or not. She approached him quickly and got down.

His eyes were closed and he was a sickly reddish color. “Sir, can you hear me. Sir!” She had put on plastic gloves and shook his shoulder gently. His eyes opened slowly and he seemed to be having trouble focusing.

“Who are you?” was all he could say.

“I am Officer Vinciflora, Tucson Police. Are you hurt, sir? What is wrong?”

The man lifted a hand and pointed down to his groin area. “A bite, I think,” he mumbled vaguely.

“Ok, sir. I am going to call for an air ambulance. You hold on.” Yaya immediately got back on the Sat phone and called back to the station. “Granger, I am sending you my coordinates. This man has been bitten by something and is extremely sick. We need to do helicopter; the ambulance will take too long.”

“Roger, Detective. Got the coordinates, making the call.”

Yaya propped the man’s head up a bit with the blanket. She got out an extra bottle of water from her pack and let him sip the water slowly.

In thirty minutes she could hear the wop-wop of the bird. She stood still and waved both arms. The pilot saw her and set the copter down close to them. Two paramedics rushed out with a stretcher and lifted the man onto it and started peppering him with questions.

Soon, the copter was back in the air and whisking the sick man to the hospital.

Yaya called back to the station. “Granger.”

“Yes, Ma’am!”

“Granger, it’s a Sunday, my day off. And I need to take this horse back to the stables. I will go by that conference center to have a few words with the guests to find out who this guy is. Could you do the follow up calls with the hospital to see how he is, maybe get the report started. I’ll get you more info tomorrow.”

“Yes, Maám, no problem. Will do. Over and out.”

Yaya had to laugh at the young sergeant’s eagerness. “Gosh, was I like that?” Shi’ma just whinnied. Yaya went over to the car, pulled out the keys and checked the registration. She took a picture with her cell phone. “Hum, Reginald Knight, Los Angeles, CA. What the heck are you doing way out here, Mr. Knight?”

She backtracked down the road a few miles and found the convention center. She introduced herself at the front desk and the receptionist ran to get a manager. The manager came bustling out and Yaya informed her of what had gone on.

“Oh, no. Mr. Knight. Oh, my gosh. Will he be okay, do you think?”

“Probably, so. But the hospital will have to give us a report. Was he with anyone here?”

The manager conferred with the receptionist and looked up. “Sue Clark is our contact person. I will personally go get her for you.” She hurried away.

Yaya relaxed for a few minutes. The receptionist stared curiously out the front door to a chestnut horse tied up at the gate. “Is that your horse?” she was wide-eyed.

“Yes, that is Shi’ma Yazi. She’s a girl, seven years old.”

“Ohh, she’s beautiful. Can I pet her?”

“Sure, she’s friendly.” The girl dashed outside to make friends.

Sue Clark, the lady with big red glasses reappeared with the manager. Yaya gave her a brief rundown of what had happened. “Mr. Knight is a guest here?”

“Oh, yes. He is a well-known author and our guest for this conference. He left sometime last night, we didn’t know where and didn’t show up for breakfast. That’s when we started looking for him.”

“I see. Did he leave with anyone last night?”

Sue blinked and looked astounded at the question. “I am sorry, officer, I have literally no clue.”

Yaya nodded. “Okay, well I need to get my horse back to the stables, it has been a bit of a day for us. Were you planning on leaving soon to go home?”

“Well, the conference was supposed to be over today with all of us leaving Monday morning.” Sue looked anxious.

“Okay, well can’t be helped. Either I or one of the station officers will be out either later today or early tomorrow to get statements. Please ask your guests to not leave until we have done that.”

“Oh, okay.” Sue replied. “What do you think is wrong with Reginald?”

“Don’t know, Ms. Clark. He seemed to think something had bitten him.”

Reginald Knight recovered slowly at TMC medical center. They determined that he had been stung, not bitten, in the groin area by a small, black scorpion, known to be more dangerous for its venom. The situation was not helped by his extreme obesity, the high alcohol content in his blood stream and his high blood pressure.

Yaya got the okay to go see him later the next day. When she kept asking him again and again why he decided to drive into the desert, late at night, by himself, he kept insisting that he wanted to experience moonlight in the desert. She was sure he was full of it, but didn’t press. He finished up telling her, “Yes, I have a wife at home in England. She is very stressed by this thing happening to me. It is all I can do to not have her jump on the next plane and fly over here just to take care of me.” He gave her a sickly smile.

Yaya guessed he was hiding something, and probably another woman, but the man was not pressing charges, he wasn’t dead. He would soon be recovered and out of her patch, so she was okay with the outcome.

The next week in Los Angeles, California: Hillary Jane was on Sunset Boulevard, Los Angeles and she was mad. She marched into Willie Smythe’s office at 9 am the very next Tuesday.

“I am here to see Mr. Smythe,” she told the secretary walking swiftly toward his office.

“No, no, Ms. Jane! You can’t go in without an appointment! Mr. Smythe is a very busy man.”

Hillary turned and looked at the woman. “Don’t I just know it,” she replied calmly.

She walked into Smythe’s office, he was on the phone.

“You slimy, double crossing English turd,” she announced.

The secretary hovered uncertainly at the door.

Willie looked hard at Hillary and then spoke into the phone, “Call you back.”

“What’s this all about, Hillary? Didn’t you get your last contract check?” he replied innocently.

Hillary pulled out her leather messenger bag. She began dropping printouts of Knight’s book covers on his desk, stapled to her original typed manuscript copies. Willie glanced down at the stack. “Gladys, you can go. Please close the door.”

He casually thumbed through the stack. “Okay, so what?” he said in his most blasé fashion.

“They are the same,” she replied.

“Ok, so maybe a little similar. In concept.” He picked up his teacup and took a careful sip.

“They are not similar, you Limey bastard, they are the same, exactly the same. You took my manuscripts, gave or sold them to this ass,” she pointed to Knight’s name. And used my work for his books. Books for which he has received thousands and thousands of dollars in royalties.”

“Are you going to be able to prove any of this, this…” he waved a hand in the air, “…stuff?”

“Me, prove it?” Hillary replied with a laugh. “How about we take this to a Superior Court judge and let him decide. Hum? Just how many plagiarism cases go through the courts in this town, successfully?” She glared at him.

“Hillary, will you please sit down and stop looming over me.” Willie gave an exasperated wave of his hand to the chair in front of his desk. She sat. “If I were to entertain, entertain, the notion that perhaps…perhaps, some ideas,” he stressed the word, “some ideas were floated over to an already fully established writer, with a successful sales track record, then, perhaps….there might be some compensation for said ideas.”

Hillary sat in the chair, bag in hand and stared at her agent. “20% of all future royalties and a percentage of all royalties already garnered from the sales of these books,” she pointed to the titles on Willie’s desk.

The man started to raise his hands in a defensive manner. “If not, I go to The Guardian, The Sun, the Daily Mirror for starters and tell them all about it. And that is in addition to suing both of you in Los Angeles Superior Court.” She crossed her arms over her chest in a mulish fashion.

Willie sighed a very big sigh. “I need to make a phone call.” He got on the speaker phone and dialed a number. It rang several times. He put it through his computer, so a screen popped up on the computer.

“Reggie here. What’s up Willie?”

“Reg, I have that young woman I talked to you about before. Hillary, Hillary Jane. You remember the name, don’t you?”

“Yes, yes, of course. What’s this about, Willie? You know I am still in hospital in this horrible state after being attacked by some monstrous ….”

Willie turned the computer screen around so Reginald could see Hillary.

“It’s you! That girl at the conference, you!” Reginald declared, pointing a fat finger. “What the hell did you do to me, young woman? I have the mind to call the police and…”

“Reggie, shut up.” Willie picked up the book covers and the manuscripts and waved them at Reginald. The man looked shocked. “Yeah, well that’s what I thought. I told you Reggie.”

Reginald Knight uttered something that sounded a bit like “blowfishwhistle.’’

“Right, Reggie. Be getting back to you. Later.” Willie hit the disconnect number and the screen went blank. “So, Hillary…”

“It’s Ms. Jane to you, Willie.”

“Okay, then, Ms. Jane. We can have our attorneys contact you and work something out. Something satisfactory.”

“That would be great, Willie.” Hillary stood up suddenly. “I expect to hear back very, very soon.”

Willie did a small bow of his head as Hillary approached the closed door to leave. “And last thing, Willie,” the man looked up, “you are quite definitely not my agent anymore.”

With that Hillary Jane left the office. She walked quickly past the stunned Gladys and out into the California sunshine. Only when she was at the side of her small, used Toyota Corolla sedan, did she let out a whoop! that startled the passerbys. She didn’t care.

It was a very, very good day in Los Angeles and a great day for Hillary Jane, scriptwriter.

The end, Cew   6/26

The Author’s Tale

03 Friday Jul 2026

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Courtney E. Webb

The trail was quiet this time of the morning, the sky a hazy blue, giving a hint of rain but surely promising upper 90s heat by late morning.

Yaya could hear the cry and titter of the desert birds. She tried hard to recognize them and to tell the difference between their cries. The small cactus wren and the curved bill thrasher had similar tit-tit cries. The quail she could easily tell as the mother bird scurried across the path trailing a clutch of smaller birds behind her. The owl she knew she would never hear; it was a night predator and the hawk she could mostly see, circling high in the sky above her. It, she knew, was looking for lunch.

Tis the way, she thought to herself. Shi’ma Yazhi, (little mother in Apache,) her chestnut mare plodded along the trail in her quiet, unassuming way. Yaya knew her quarter horse knew the trail better than she did. The police detective trusted the horse would instinctively lead her out so far on the trail and then almost knowing it was time, turn around and head back.

Yaya had learned to rely on her horse’s instincts. Shi’ma was a seven-year-old quarter horse, brought by its owner from a cattle ranch in Oklahoma. Smart, capable and extremely calm, she was the perfect ride for Yaya who, admittedly, was an advanced beginner to intermediate rider.

The Tucson police detective had taken up riding a couple of years ago, something she had always wanted to do and never had the time or money for. Now that her little girl, Katie, was seven, and was consistently spending every other weekend with her dad, attorney Vince Vinciflora, Yaya could count on some more time for herself. She had tried to get Katie, or Scooter as she was called, to ride with her. The little girl thought the horses “Big, scary and smelly!”

“Ah, well,” Yaya said to the large saguaro as she passed. “I guess we can’t do everything together.” The saguaro with its big arms held out to the side, seemed of course, to nod agreement.

It was a little past spring in the Tucson desert area and the flowers were fading. Summer had not quite hit yet but Yaya was trying hard to respond to the alarm clock to get out of the house early enough to beat the blistering heat. It was good in other ways too; she avoided Sunday traffic and the zillion yuppies that appeared with their various very perfect children in tow.

Yaya got to ZZZ stables and unpacked her gear: water bottle, nut snacks and proper low-heeled riding boots. Her horse-owner partner, Pricilla was already out in the yard getting Shi’ma Yazhi saddled up.

Pricilla was a tall, thin young woman of about twenty-eight or twenty- nine years. Dressed as usual in tight blue jeans, cotton T-shirt, sunglasses and a short-rimmed cowboy hat; Pricilla was country all the way down to her dusty, hand-tooled cowboy boots.

Hailing from Oklahoma, she had sunflower blue eyes, freckles, a dirty blond plait down the center of her back and a warm welcoming smile.  Pricilla had driven from the Midwest with her quarter-horse behind her in an individual horse trailer. Something about following a husband out here who had been stationed at the air base.

The young woman didn’t share a lot of details. Long experience dealing with the public as a police officer, Yaya knew not to press for information. Good or bad, the facts would eventually come out.

Yaya had started at the stables taking lessons. She very quickly gravitated to Shi’ma with her calm manner. Other stable horses could be cranky and bad mannered. Over a period of time, chatting with Pricilla, it became evident the young woman did not make enough income to live in what was rapidly becoming upwardly mobile Tucson, even on the outskirts. With a series of short conversations and thinly veiled offers to help, the two women agreed to a plan. As ‘co-owners’ of Shi’ma, Pricilla would ride her during the week and take care of the food and water. Yaya would ride one to two days on the weekend and they would split costs. The split was more like 60-40% with Yaya paying the lions share; she didn’t care. She loved the horse and figured Pricilla was doing most of the heavy work anyway.

So, the relationship between the two women solidified and Yaya’s riding skills steadily improved as well as her personal relationship with Shi’ma. It was as though the horse began to understand that this was someone different, not just another rider. She would nuzzle Yaya when they came together and Yaya always remembered to bring a small apple or carrots for her equine friend.

“Hey, Yaya,” Pricilla called out. “Good?”

“All good, Prissy, and ready to go,” Yaya responded as Pricilla handed the reins over to her. The two women exchanged smiles as Yaya mounted up.

Out on the trail, Yaya could feel the cares and worries of the week fall off her shoulders. It was one place she felt she could really relax. What a great feeling!

A few miles away, at The Writer’s Retreat Group, held at a small desert conference center, things were not so relaxed.

Reginald Knight noted and oft praised author/scriptwriter from Hollywood was holding forth with his groupies. A collection of some very fat to some very skinny women were clustered around Reginald, sitting on white folding chairs in a large room usually reserved for meals.

Reginald was pontificating about the ‘Writing Process’ and the women were scribbling furiously.

“Yes, yes,” he put up a well-manicured, tanned and pudgy hand, “you have to feel the character, feel it. In here,” he lightly punched his rounded gut. “Feel it, feel the character, get into the emotions and then,” he waved a hand in the air like he was holding a magic wand, “take all that and put it down on paper.”

The women nodded rapidly; mesmerized.

“Tell me Pamela, how is your character feeling?” he asked one of the women, his English accent subtly coming through.

“Well,” Pamela one of the thin women of about forty or fifty years of age, with wispy indifferent hair and a baggy, floral dress about two sizes two big for her replied in a timid voice. “Well, the character is really me and some events that happened to me when I was a teenager.” She trailed off looking hopeful at the great writer.

“Ah, memoir, your genre. I see.” Reginald tapped one pudgy finger against his chin.

“That’s alright, isn’t it?” Pamela responded to the silence nervously.

There was a pause. “Oh, yes. Quite alright. Many of the best writers out there do memoirs. It can be a very popular genre.” He paused again. The blue eyes stared at the woman, who was gripping her pen. “You do know what a genre is, don’t you, Pamela?” It was like the school master addressing a naughty student.

The woman blushed deep pink. “Yes, yes. I think so,” She looked around desperately, silently begging for help.

One of the other women, a short, stocky lady with spiky white hair and big red glasses spoke. “Of course, Reginald, the ladies in our group all know that. A genre represents the different styles of books, like mystery, romance, thriller and so on.” She shifted her gaze to Pamela and gave her a meaningful stare.

“Oh, right, right,” Pamela tittered, “different styles of writing and books.” She stopped and looked down at her writing pad, the pink flush fading to a dark red. She looked like she wanted to dissolve.

“Of course, of course,” Reginald smiled.

He faintly resembles a desert lizard when he smiles, thought the older woman in the red glasses. She got a faint ‘ick’ feeling.

Sue, the older woman and group leader, took charge of the meeting and announced, “Well girls, I think we have annoyed Reginald long enough and I for one vote for a recess for lunch!”

There was a generalized chorus of agreement. Chairs got shuffled backwards and almost on cue, the center staff showed up to move long white tables into place. Behind the long-raised countertop at the side of the room, kitchen helpers could be seen to pull out large containers of sandwiches, chips, pickles and cold sodas to put in place.

Most of the women excused themselves for a few minutes to wash up before lunch.

Sue latched onto Reginald before the group broke up. He was heading toward a side door.

“Joining us for lunch, Reginald?” Sue asked gaily.

Reginald turned a gimlet eye to the lunch fare. With the slightest grimace and shrug of the shoulders he told her, “Thanks, Sue. Appreciate it. There’s an Italian place just over the hill I have been wanting to try. Think I’ll jog over there for lunch.”

Jog was a euphemism of course. Reginald or Reggie, as most of his friends called him, never jogged anywhere if he could help it. Walking from his jaguar to the door of a restaurant was about as much exercise as he could stand.

Sue nodded with a frozen smile. Reginald had been paid a nice sum to come and be their speaker at this two-day conference. Dining with the guests was generally considered de rigueur. De rigueur for their other speakers. Of course, she thought to herself, this jerk has to be the different one.

Not saying what was actually on her mind, instead she said, “No problem, Reginald. I guess we start up again at 3:30 to go until an early dinner. Yes?” She smiled with determination.

Reginald glanced at his Rolex watch, considered it a moment and said, “Yes, I think I can do that.” He smiled beatifically at Sue, and she did have to admire the incredibly well-done veneers on his front teeth.

The man turned and left. Sue unclenched her hands and walked stiffly back to the lunchroom and plopped down on a fold out chair. Her buddy, Louise, sat down next to her.

“Trouble, dear?”

Sue poured herself a large glass of ice-water from the carafe. A recovered alcoholic, she downed a large mouthful of the cold liquid before speaking. “I don’t know, Louise. I am not sure this guy was worth the money we put out for him.”

Louise looked concerned. “Well, honey. He is a very well-known writer, and he does really seem to know his stuff….” She trailed off looking hopeful at her friend.

“I know all that, hell, I was the one who did the research and found him. It’s just…I don’t know. There is just something about him.” She shook her head and sipped her water.

Louise shrugged and poured some water for herself. They both stared out at the beautiful blue skies seen through the huge plate glass windows of the kitchen area.

On the backside of the conference grounds, in one of the guest rooms, a different scene played out.

“I felt so stupid. I just felt so stupid.” Pamela cried into a small handkerchief.

Her friend, Hillary Jane, a forty something lady, held her around the shoulders.

“Come on, Pam. It’s alright. No one will even remember by tomorrow. It will be forgotten,” she said soothingly.

“I knew the answer, I knew the answer to the question. I just froze!” Pam wailed into the soggy scrap of linen.

“Pam, how long has it been since you’ve been in school? You forget stuff like that you know. Happens all the time.”

“I haven’t been in college for twenty years,” Pam sniffed. “I’ve been married and had kids.”

“See,” reasoned Hillary, “perfectly understandable.”

“But he is so well known and written so many books. I don’t know. I don’t think I can go back this afternoon. I’m too embarrassed.”

“Well, I’m a copy editor and read a lot of stuff and I have never read anything of Mr. Reginal Knight. So, he can’t be all that great.”

“Well…” Pam was running out of objections.

“Look,” Hillary got up and pulled Pam up with her, “let’s go have some lunch and then maybe a little nap. We’ll both be good as new for the next meeting. Then, if you don’t want to come, I’ll just make your excuses, and we’ll meet up again for dinner. I hear some of the girls want to try a Mexican food restaurant just over the hill. Maybe have a margarita. It will be fun!”

Pam nodded miserably and allowed herself to be led out of the room for lunch.

This guy is a regular asshole, Hillary thought to herself as she led the way to the lunchroom. Absolutely no call for him to act like that. She grimaced and put it out of her mind for the moment.

In truth, Hillary was herself a bit more than she appeared to be, or just another member of a woman’s writing club. Tall, willowy, with long light brown hair with some silver showing through, Hillary was a bit pass forty but had not yet hit the fifty mark. She was still attractive and made careful use of cosmetics and hairstyles to accentuate her features.

Hillary Jane was in truth more than a copyeditor for magazines. She was a ghost writer for the Hollywood scene. Her specialty was scripts and script repair for some of the bigger writers in the movie biz who were in too much of a hurry to be careful with their writing or too lazy to take the time anymore to clean things up before submitting. Somehow, once scriptwriters attained a name for themselves, some of the hard work of editing and revising seemed to be a bit beneath them.

Hillary had disclosed to Sue, but not the others that she had been variously: Zane Grey, Samatha Cartwright, Lillian DePlonsebury, Rex Mananoff, Sweet Sister Sue, amongst others.

“You are kidding,” Sue breathed out in sheer disbelief.

“Nope,” Hillary shook her head. She sipped her iced tea. They were having lunch.

“So why, I don’t understand, don’t you tell everyone? Tell us, the girls? They would be astounded, I know.” Sue plucked an olive from her plate and started chewing.

“Non-disclosure agreements,” Hillary replied. “Iron-clad. Attorneys and everything, signed in blood. Multiple threats of death and dismemberment if I talk.” Hillary bit into her whole-grain tuna sandwich.

“Wow,” Sue replied, “that seems so…so…”

“Unfair?” Hillary replied. She shook her head in the affirmative. “I know. But those are the rules and you got to play by the rules you want to make the money.”

“Still…” Sue shook her head and popped another olive in her mouth. She swallowed. “They pay you well?” she wanted to know.

Hillary nodded. “It’s a living. I’m not making what the big-name screenwriters make, of course, but I get by.”

Sue nodded thoughtfully. “So, just how much do the big names make?”

“Oh, I don’t know.” Hillary thought a moment. “Maybe two, two hundred fifty thousand a year.”

“Two hundred and fifty thousand! Wow! I never knew. That’s as much as some doctors and lawyers make. Jeeze. And then you…?”

“A whole lot less than that,” Hillary replied and laughed. She chased the tuna bite with some potato chips and sipped her tea.

continued part II

Crumbs

03 Friday Jul 2026

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I sit down at the restaurant with my friend and order a coffee.

They bring it in one of their signature cups: a China cup with

a black background and vivid pink blooming flowers

adorn the cup.  I open the package of Madeline cookies

and carefully arrange them around the saucer.

My friend orders her healthy vegetarian sandwich

on whole-grain bread.

When the sandwich arrives, she inhales it like a starving wolf

on the steppes of Siberia. Between bites she starts a long discourse on her

favorite subject, herself.

I sip my coffee and bite into a Madeline.

I drift off and think about him.

Tall, well-built, almond-shaped hazel eyes. Dark blond hair in an almost military cut.  

Hiking boots ready for his next adventure.

Personal office space dotted with advanced degrees, awards for his time in the military. Pictures of the wife, the child. Various vacations. A life well spent. A life being the head-guy.

And he is the head-guy. Chatty, friendly, full of curiosity and interests. The office girls rotate

around him like planets around the sun. He is engaging…interesting.

In the many years I have known him, only once, recently, did he utter the words “my wife.”

Never before. No wedding ring, no recent photos. Lots of trips, none of which seemed to include her. The wife.

Recently, he has become more than a little interested. At long last. Now that I know for sure there is another.

My friend talks on. I eat another cookie and sip more coffee. I nod my head and say things like “Yes, absolutely.” “Interesting!” and go on with my daydream.

Thinking of others; the half-a-loaf guys. Always giving you half a loaf and never the whole loaf. And I, desperate, needy? Willing to accept that and be happy. The husband, the ring, the vows. Yet…. there in person and absent in soul. Never really there.

I’m older now. Less needy. The internal fires have dampened down more, which is a mercy. I can be more removed, more objective.

The waitress comes to pour more coffee. Are all those cookies gone? I inspect the saucer and realize that all that is left are the crumbs. All three cookies, gone.

The crumbs are all my head-guy is offering. Not the whole loaf, not even half. Just crumbs.

For once in my life the crumbs won’t be enough.

My friend has finished her sandwich and has wound down. She is looking at me with a funny expression.

“Are you okay?” she asks.

“Yes. Yes, I am,” I reply.  I am quite certain now. I finish my coffee and brush the little crumbs away as we get ready to leave.

5/26

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Fatcity

03 Friday Jul 2026

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I was in the garden, poking along, enjoying the plants and art exhibits. In a few minutes, I would go into the butterfly exhibit and get my yearly dose of the beautiful, winged creatures.


It was discount day at the gardens and like a diligent senior shopper, I was off to pick up my discount while it lasted. It was getting a little warm on this perfect May day in the desert. The sky was blue and we were favored with a light breeze. The real heat of summer had not descended yet like a smothering blanket on this little Tucson desert.
Inside the butterfly exhibit, the air was damp and humid. The plants were green and lush. The guardians at the gate made sure we were respectful of the entrance and exits so the little beauties didn’t get out. There were small, frantic black ones with orange and white spots, darting around. The larger, more languid brown specimens surprised me when they opened, and their diaphanous sky-blue colors featured spots like eyes on each wing. Some master and commander types in the deepest black with orange stripes hung in glass boxes. Some clustered around orange and banana slices on vibrant glass plates. Blue and green, brown and black, periwinkle and black; they danced around the running stream in the petite jungle of their home.


Satisfied with the beauty of the place once again, I emerged from the rainforest enclosure to continue wandering the garden.
Walking the labyrinth of the various specimens the garden had to offer, I felt it was time for a spot of refreshment. I began searching for the café I knew was nestled in there somewhere. In my hunt I found myself behind a woman and her small daughter who she held by the hand. Having an eye for color, I couldn’t help but notice the vibrant pink striped dress the woman was wearing. A veritable collage of pinks, maroons, tans and brown. It was pretty with full flowing sleeves, a belted waist and full skirt. On top of all that, she wore a spring hat, colorful sunglasses and dress shoes. The little girl, likewise, had on a little spring dress and gaudy pink sunglasses.

Given my usual ensemble of shorts, a cotton shirt, sandals and sunhat; I would have felt a little underdressed except that most everyone else at the gardens was dressed in similar fashion; dressed down and for the heat.
As we wound our way out of the specimen gardens, I couldn’t help but notice that the pretty dress the woman was wearing covered up a massively overweight body. Her arms and legs were heavy, her back rolled over the tight belt, and it was clear the striped pattern was a trompe-l’oeil that was picked carefully to fool the eye on an extreme weight problem.
Once that registered, I was free to overhear the conversation between the two.
“Well, we can go to get the cake pops first and then go to the store for some groceries. Or, we can get the groceries first and then go to get the cake pops. What do you think, honey?”
The little girl kept walking and didn’t respond. Then the mother repeated the choices and threw in another third option.
“Which do you want to do?” There was almost a pleading tone to the mother’s voice.
Finally, the little girl responded, “Cake pops.”
“Okay, good, we’ll do that.” The mother seemed relieved and they continued to make their way out. Our joint paths ended at the café, and I went to order some cold tomato soup.
As I sat and enjoyed my cold gazpacho and croutons, I couldn’t stop thinking about the woman in the flowing striped dress and her need for what appeared to be validation from a five-year old.
As a free-lance writer and social commentator, I wondered if this was the tip of a story.
The next weekend, my adult daughter invited me to go to another park for a birthday party. My cuter than cute granddaughter was invited to a chum’s birthday celebration and my (big) girl thought it would be fun if we all went.

“Come on, Mom. It will be a hoot. You get to see what all the moms my age are getting up to.”
Given that my options were a relax-and-stretch class with a bunch of middle-aged women on floor mats then, lunch with my cat, I decided to go.
We arrived at the big park at 10 am; in time for lots of games, then presents and a light lunch. Enough time to get all the five-year-olds home for an afternoon nap. Our five-year-old, Doodle (not her real name – Dorothy) was all dolled up. She was wearing her bestest marine animals t-shirt, matching pink leggings, fluorescent tennis shoes. Her mom had done service in putting up the hair in tight little pigtails and ribbons, all guaranteed to last about 45 minutes before tumbling down.
Regardless, the girl darted out of the car the moment she was unbuckled from the backseat. Grabbing the present, she ran pell-mell to the gathering group of kids.
It was a big park and Lenora and I ambled at a slower pace toward the festivities. The first thing that caught my eye was the large red and yellow jumping gym in one corner. It was one of those blow-up things you see at parties and events for hire. Kids were already inside jumping around like hooligans and screaming with delight. I could hear the hum of the motor next to the bouncy thing that apparently kept it inflated.
Lenora spotted another mother. “Oh, hey!” she called. “Mom, I’m going to say hello. I think they are serving lemonade over there.” She made a vague wave and I waved back.
“No, problem. I’m just going to walk around,” I replied. She scooted off.
My leather backpack in place and a water bottle at my hip, I decided to get some of that lemonade and make the rounds. I grabbed a red cold cup, helped myself to some ice, and poured lemonade out of a big bottle. Mothers were busy around the food table getting out napkins, plates and plastic ware, all ready for the early lunch.
I decided that since I was merely a guest and not a contributor, to not volunteer for anything. I smiled vaguely at the mom-helpers and wandered away from the table with a sugar cookie in hand.
Next, I was drawn to the make-shift stage where a magician was performing magic tricks to a group of kids sitting in front of him, all agog with interest. I laughed.

How funny, I thought. A magician. Actually, that was not the end of festivities. In a far corner, a young woman and an older man led a small, fat, grey pony around in circles for some very excited riders. I was starting to shake my head.
A bit further into the park, there was a grassy area. I spotted Doodle and some of her chums gathered around a princess in full dress reading to them from a book. I got a little closer and realized the princess was Snow White in full yellow and blue dress, like in the movie. The black, pageboy hair cut must have been a wig.
Wow! I thought. This is really something. For a kid’s birthday party!
Circling back to the food table I realized there was another picnic table nearby that was covered with boxes of board games and several kids had discovered these and were digging into Monopoly Junior.
I got a refill of my lemonade and grabbed another cookie with the intention of finding the daughter and following in her wake. It was then I noticed what had to be the hostess of the event. She was in an intense conversation with a smaller, thin man who seemed to be about the same age. The intense conversation came to an end. The thin man shuffled off to do something, and the woman returned to the food table to continue organizing stuff.
It was with some surprise that I thought to myself, It’s that woman from the park!
I stood staring for a minute. The big, voluminous dress was gone. In its place was a large t-shirt with elaborate designs on the front, black leggings and flats. The hat too was gone. In its place was a large hairdo with lots of layers and curls that looked professionally done. I got a bit closer. The woman had her head down concentrating on what she was doing. But enormous black eyelashes fairly stood out from her face.
Approaching the table, I slowed to refill my cup with ice and add in some more lemonade. Sipping from my drink I remarked, “Nice party.”
The woman stopped what she was doing for a moment and looked up. She had a nice, full face. Not beautiful but with perfectly done makeup. The eyes, the lipstick and foundation, all of it, looked like she had just stepped from the beauty shop.
“Thank you,” she replied. “We try.”

“I’m Caroline, Lenora’s mom. Dorothy’s my…”
“Oh, yes. You’re the grandmother. My daughter always likes all the little…marine animals your granddaughter wears on her shirts. She thinks they’re…cute.” She smiled with a little force.
“Yes, well, her dad is the Fish Guy, so we like to encourage…”
“Sheila, did you check on the cake?” The hostess turned and moved in on another woman who was monitoring a huge pink box.
Feeling I had been dismissed, I moved away.
Wandering about a bit more, I relocated Snow White who looked to be winding down on her story. I could see Doodle who was staring, entranced by the spectacle. She was clearly completely in love with Snow White. I was sorry the show was about over. Oh, well, I thought, there’s the jumpy gym before lunch.
I caught my girl by the hand as the group was breaking up and we were on our way to jump house when her mom showed up.
“There you two are,” Lenora said with mock sternness.
“Like we have been misbehaving,” I replied.
“Well, apparently, this is the place for that,” she laughed.
“Isn’t it just,” I retorted. “Have you ever in your life seen so many activities at a party for just fives before? Wow!”
Lenora shrugged.
“I think at my five-year party, we played musical chairs, had cake and ice-cream and everyone thought it was great!”
“Well, Mom, you know. Things change. People may do it a little different these days.” She sounded a little defensive.
I decided to let it go. “Maybe. I met your hostess. Large gal, over there,” I waved. “At the food table. Sort of an intense person.”
“Oh, yes. That would be Joy. The mom. She is a little intense. Don’t mind her. I take it she just likes to have everything right.”

I nodded. Does she ever, I thought.
Doodle spent a few minutes in the jumpy gym and by that time, lunch was served and presents were to be unwrapped and then cake. We all snacked on sandwiches, chips and more lemonade. A huge mound of presents got unwrapped with squeals of delight from the birthday girl. At long last, the enormous chocolate cake was served. The little blond girl I had seen at the park with the mom blew out the candles, we all sang Happy Birthday and the party was over.


We tramped back to the parking lot. Doodle with a little gift bag in her hand. Me with another cookie (!) and Lenora with a slice of chocolate cake to give to the Fish Guy when they got home.
Dropping them off, I wheeled on back to my place. I needed to check the cat’s bowl for kibble and water and then maybe take a nap. All the festivities and walking around in the fresh air had about done me in.
Two hours later, nap done, cat taken care of; my free-lance writer’s itch was getting the better of me. I do articles for various magazines; my name, Carol Kane, has popped up here and there. Of course, I am always on the lookout for another interesting ‘angle.’
Despite my daughter’s assurances that Joy, our hostess, was just a stickler for detail, things about the party, about the woman kept bothering me. After seeing her at the park with the elaborate get-up on an increasingly warm day and then to see the totally over-the-top fantastic kids’ party; I kept getting that feeling of something below the surface.
Joy had a cadre of friends. They too were a group of chunky monkeys. But Joy did seem to be the head monkey. Now I should talk. Having been on the slim side most of my life, middle-age had done things to my waistline I don’t think any diet could fix.
Lenora, busy chasing after her young’un, was built like a bean pole, just like her dad. And Doodle, constantly growing, ranged from pleasantly plump to slightly skinny depending on the day and month.

No, it was the conversation that I had overheard in the garden. The giving the little girl all those choices and then expecting an answer like you would from an adult. The whole thing was a little…weird.
Joy, in fact, was a little…weird. I felt like I needed to look into this thing some more. First I had to decide what this ‘thing’ that I was looking into was. What was it? The party, the food, the weight. What? I decided to start with the easiest thing to consider, the weight.
I did a little research. Google shows that Wegovy and Ozempic are widely used to control weight. Contrave is used as an antidepressant and to curb appetite and reduce cravings. These show 15% weight loss. Zepbound shows 20% weight loss. If they work so well, why are there still so many chubby women (and men). Shouldn’t we be seeing more whippet thin types running around? Is the problem the food? Or something else?


I was out for a hike on my favorite trail. Again, I was wearing my usual: cotton t-shirt, shorts with pockets (for stuff), a water bottle on a shoulder strap, a small leather backpack and a large hat. With my two walking sticks (for upgrades and downslopes,) I was ready to go. Since I don’t listen to music when I hike, I get a chance to enjoy nature, watch the hills, hear the birds and, of course, watch the people. You can tell the oldtimey hikers. They all dress in some version of what I was wearing, even garb older than mine.
Then, there are the college girls out for a romp. Generally in something very low-cut in the front and high up on the thigh. Hopefully they brought enough water! These girls often arrive in packs and chatter like a flock of birds or they are in two-somes, busy impressing a new boyfriend.
Then there are the Very Serious Women Hikers. Frequently hiking alone with a very determined air. They have all the gear; water, correct shoes, sunglasses, hats. They are frequently overweight and are clearly doing penance for their sins and they are working hard, very hard, to get that weight off.
I sigh. I hate to see such a lovely day and fun time turned into such drudgery and work. Ah, me. But, then again, I am not usually beating myself up on a daily basis for being 50, 75 or 100 pounds overweight. Probably makes a difference.

I sat out on my front porch, enjoying a coffee and the evening sky. Again, the summer heat had not set in yet and the evening was warmish, even balmy. From where I was sitting, I could see the DQ ice cream place half a block away. As always, the drive through station was full of cars all waiting to get their ice cream. I sat and wondered about the days past when part of getting the ice cream was going in and hanging out with your friends. What happened to that?
My phone rang.
“Hey, Carolyn, there’s going to be a great speaker at the Women’s Center on Thursday. I hear she is really good. Want to go?”
“Sure, Kath, let me check my calendar.” I went to check my bulging social calendar. Nothing. “Yeah, sure. Nothing on. I’ll go.”
“Great!” She chirped. “7 pm. I’ll meet you there. Yeah?”
“Yep, we are on.”
We both hung up and I went back to watching the DQ customers.


The next Thursday we shuffled into the hall and took our places on the metal-folded chairs. I hate those. They always make my butt cold. Whatever. The women around me were buzzing with excitement. There was coffee and water on the side table. I went to get a cup and scurried back to my seat. The hostess was banging the gavel.
“Evening, ladies and some gents.” She nodded to two men tucked furtively in a back corner. “Our speaker tonight is well known in her circles and has spoken many, many times to groups of people. Sharon S. will share her experience, strength and hope about her path of battling with alcoholism. Sharon.” With a flourish of her hand, the leader relinquished the podium.
A tall, good-looking woman of about 50 years got up and began to speak.

For forty minutes I was enthralled with her stories of drunkenness, drug addiction, living on the streets, having biker boyfriends and the whole enchilada. She did loop back to the past and talked about her older sister.
“My older sister was the smart one, the pretty one, the one who got all the grades, the prizes, the awards, the boyfriends. She did well at everything she touched. The apple of my parents’ eyes and I could never really measure up. I wasn’t enough.”
And there it was. For a moment, it was like the room stopped, a short wrinkle in time and I got it. “I wasn’t enough.” There it all was in a nutshell. The answer.
That night when the meeting broke up and I got home, I checked on the cat, poured another decaf in my cup and settled onto my chair on the porch. I called my daughter.
“Lenora,” I started.
“Yes, Mom,” she replied.
“Did you, do you…ever feel like you are not enough. Like you weren’t enough as a kid growing up?”
“Enough what?” she asked quizzically.
“Enough of anything, everything,” I responded.
“Mom, are you okay?” she asked.
“Me?” I was surprised by the question. “I’m fine. Why?”
“Well, sometimes it seems like you worry about a lot of things. Maybe…too much.”
“Ah, right. Yes, I see. Well, it’s getting late so say nighty-night to the Doodle.”
“I will, Mom. Love you.” She signed off.


I sat and sipped my coffee. The desert stars were starting to twinkle on and I was left to ponder the meaning of the phrase ‘not enough.’


The end.

Cew
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Love is Often Not Enough

03 Monday Feb 2025

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Love is Often Not Enough – The Grantchester Series

I love the PBS series, Grantchester. It has been on for nine seasons and apparently, a lot of other people like it too. What’s not to like? Sidney Chambers, the Anglican priest of a small English town after the end of World War II. He is back from the war and is ready to tend his flock!

Sidney Chambers (James Norton) is tall, good looking, humble, sincere, intelligent and….savvy and intuitive enough to figure out who done it! His side-kick, the ever detective Geordie Keating (Robson Green) sometimes leads and sometimes follows his vicar as they investigate one murder after another. Between Sidney and Geordie, they usually catch their man (or woman) as the episode wraps up.

Sidney who is single, (and the most eligible bachelor in the county), is a contrast to Geordie; a married man with uncounted numbers of children running around. Geordie and vicarage housekeeper keep busy filling Sidney’s head with tid bits of country lore and folk wisdom. Much of it concerns romance.

Sidney’s long time ‘friend’ Amanda Kendall (Morven Chrisite,) is someone from his highschool. Whenever chums get together, the girls never stop ogling over Sidney. Amanda and Sidney spend long afternoons in the country and it is obvious how much they care for each other.

However, regardless of how many of their mutual friends are off tying the knot and how many asides and innuedios Amanda throws his way, Sidney never seems to be able to take things to the next level. There are several espisdoes when Amanda gets engaged, and is then marching to the alter, where we keep hoping against hope that the vicar will break his silence and tell the girl that he loves, how much he loves her.

But, nope, it is not to be and Amanda gets married and becomes Mrs. Hopkins. Finally, the truth comes out between Sidney and Geordie when the vicar admits “I just wasn’t in her league.” He is referring of course to the fact that Amanda comes from money and her father is Sir Kendell and they live in an exceptionally large house.

Clearly, Sidney cannot get over the economic distance between the two of them and is frozen in silence, never to confess his true feelings.

How often, in our lives, have we talked ourselves out of something with one rational after another? In the series, one of the characters remarked, “Because we are all a pack of cowards.” How true.

In my life, I have asked myself over and over again, why is it that the guy I really have my heart set on, can’t either talk to me or even ask me out for a cup of coffee. Like Sidney, men (and women) can be full of self doubt and lack feelings of worthiness. They talk themselves out of the first step in courtship “because” until such time as the other loses interest and the fire grow cold.

Self-doubt, recriminations, lack of self-worth, guilt, fear of what other people will say, fear of failure, of getting ‘hurt again’; these are all reasons people back away from relationships and even the promise of love. Both being in love and loving someone else. We let the little ‘nigglies’ invade our thoughts, poison them and deprive us of the full life we can have and do deserve. Then, instead of dealing with the fears, we act out in childish, immature and socially inappropriate ways; having affairs with married people, isolation, drinking too much, smoking too much, feeding any number of addictions, all in an effort to hide. Hide from ourselves.

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Devine Tragedy – Conclusion

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The next day was Friday. Winter prom was one week away. Chloe approached her friend Becca.

“Becca, what do you say if we went ahead and went to the prom?”

“We don’t have dates,” Becca’s replied blankly.

“Yeah, well neither do a lot of the girls. Why don’t we bunch up and all go, together? It might be fun.”

“Well,” Becca wrinkled her brow in thought. “You know, why should the Jennifers in the world have all the fun? Let’s do it!”

Becca was the official social networker of their group. Chloe let her work her magic. Soon, there was a group of about ten loser girls with no dates who were willing to go stag. Becca was bubbling. Chloe could relax and focus on getting a dress and having her hair done. Her mother was surprised but not against the idea and started calling around hair shops.

“And,” said Chloe archly to Becca, “we’ll just go to that damn, dumb party at Jennifer’s house and say the Hell with all of them!”

“You’re brave, Chloe. I don’t know …”

“Don’t be a weenie, Becca. If we do it, we do it all the way.”

“Okay,” Becca replied, reluctance in her voice.

The big day arrived. Chloe had borrowed a cute satin cocktail dress from a friend. It was a jade green color, almost emerald and went well with her skin tone. She and mom had gone shopping for heels. She got a pair of killer black patent leathers with gold bands. Her hair was done up and the stylist managed to get every single curl in place. Mom arranged some little rhinestone pins throughout the do. Chloe looked at herself in the mirror. The stones twinkled back at her. Wow! She was looking good!

Her mom was crying, her dad was taking pictures; her little brother was lurking around the corners when Becca’s dad drove up and honked. Girls were piled in the SUV, giggling and laughing hysterically the whole way.

They had gotten permission to go to the after party as long as they were home by midnight. Two girls had their own cars and followed them.

The prom was set up in the school gym. The place had been transformed into a fairyland with lights, fake snow. Big, huge silver snowflakes hung on the curtains. Little round café tables were around the edges and candles flickered in the middle. Bowls of potpourri lent a scent of apples and pumpkin to the air.

“Do you see him?” Becca whispered.

“Who?”

“Oh, come on, Chloe. Oh, look, I think they are over there.” Becca held her finger low and pointed across the room.

Indeed, a stiff and uncomfortable looking Greg was sitting in a tux with both hands holding his knees. He looked a lot like he wanted to be somewhere else. Jennifer was in a froth of pink tulle with silver stars everywhere and was gabbing busily with friends clustered in tables around her. Kiki was close by in a low cut, tight fitting deep purple gown. Her hair was sparkling with gold shimmer, and she looked bored. Chloe watched her bend over and speak to a young man at her table. The two got up as one and disappeared.

“Oh, forget them, Chlo, let’s dance!” Becca and the girls commandeered some tables and were soon out on the dance floor giving it everything they’d got. Curiously enough, some of the guys from their class started to show up and several of the girls were then dancing with guys and not just girlfriends.

Winded, Chloe grabbed some punch and sat down to breathe. The disc jockey was playing a slow song. Unchained Melody, an oldie.

“Dance, Chloe?” she heard a masculine voice in her ear. She turned and it was Greg.

“Where’s Jenn?” she asked, incredulous.

“Oh, she went outside with some of her friends. Thought I would take a chance.” He smiled down at her.

Her stomach clutching, Chloe got up and he led her to the floor. She put her arms up, he took them, and they started a slow waltz.

“Reminds me of dance class, a long time ago,” he said.

“Yes, a long time ago.” Eventually, Chloe got closer and almost leaned her head against Greg’s shoulder. We feel so right together, the thought passed through her mind.

The music ended, Greg gave her the slightest bow and went back to his table. Chloe sank into her chair and stared at the dancers on the floor. Finally, a faint smile crept onto her face.

Becca came back and sat. “Wow, you look happy.”

“I am,” replied Chloe, “and we are definitely going to that after-party.”

“If you say so, chief.” Becca fanned herself.

At about eleven o’clock, Becca made the call, her dad appeared in front of the gym fifteen minutes later, and they piled in.

“Where are the other girls?” he asked.

“Oh, some got other rides, some went home. You know,” Becca tossed out casually.

“Okay,” her dad replied. “What’s the address?” Becca pulled the address out of her purse and her dad programmed it into his GPS pad. “Ah, the posh side of town.”

Becca shrugged, “I guess.”

Chloe had met Mr. Thompson any number of times. A short, buff but nice guy, he had a low forehead, dark eyes, black eyebrows that nearly met in the front and thick, dark hair cut almost into a burr. She had to admit to herself, although she didn’t want to, how much Becca resembled her dad.

Following the dulcet tones of the GPS voice, they arrived in the north side of town not long after. The SUV glided to a stop in front of a large, two-story house with immaculate lawn and flowerbeds; lights blazing from every window.

“What do her parents do again?” Mr. Thompson asked craning his neck toward the home.

“Oh, ah, I think her mom sells real-estate and her dad works at a bank downtown,” Becca chirped.

A white coupe with a black rag top was parked in the drive. The license plate read ‘Klassy.’ A  Cadillac SUV was parked next to it.

“Hmm,” was his reply “must be doing darn well.” He leaned back over the seat, “Give me a call when you’re done Becca, and don’t be concerned about the time, ‘kay?”

“Look there’s her mom now,” Chloe added. A blonde woman with a dazzling smile, much like her daughter’s, was standing in the front doorway waving.

“See, Dad, told you her parents would be home.”

“Okay, then.” Her father seemed placated. “You two git.”

The two girls emerged from the vehicle and walked up the broad driveway to the door.

Jennifer’s mom was a trim 40+ something with beautiful hair, teeth and ensemble. “You’re some of Jennifer’s friends. Come in, come in!” She welcomed and waved again at Mr. Thompson. He waved back and the SUV glided off. The two went into the brightly lit room and saw a number of adults standing around having drinks. Chloe was thrown for a minute.

“Alright, girls. We are having our little soiree up here, but the kid’s party is downstairs in the basement.” She walked toward some stairs and pointed down with a big smile.

Chloe and Becca both smiled uncertainly and moved down the stairs toward the very loud music. When they got there, they were greeted with banging music, a flashing music ball hanging from the ceiling and a ton of teens. Some, Chloe knew and some she had never met before. They walked around a bit and headed for the food table.

Chloe picked up a small paper plate and was putting little sandwiches on it when she heard “Chloe, Becca! You made it!”

Next thing she knew, Jennifer was spinning her around and gave her a big hug. Chloe held the plate up hoping to not spill anything, her other hand clutching her small bag.

“So, good of you to come!” Jennifer was effusive and her eyes wide and bright. “I have to get you something to drink. Would you like punch?” She had to yell over the music.

“Sure, sure,” Chloe replied, “punch, great.”

“Okay, then. Wait here.”

Becca followed Jenn’s movements a moment and then looked at Chloe.

“Is she …?”

“High?” Chloe replied, “Totally.”

“Geese, I wondered what those guys were doing leaving the prom and going out the back door,” Becca stated.

“Well, so now we know, huh. We can just stay a little while, Becca. I didn’t think it was going to be like this, so loud and so …”

“Yeah, so everything,” her friend replied.

Jennifer returned bearing two red cold cups brimming with liquid. She handed them over. “Drink up! I got to go and find that Greg again. He keeps disappearing.” She flashed another fabulous smile and wove her way through the throng of dancing bodies.

Becca took a sip of her drink and almost spit it out. “What the hell?”

Chloe tasted hers. “Ah, this tropical punch has a real punch. Wow! What did they put in this stuff?”

“Do you think her parents know?” Becca asked and sipped some more punch.

“How could they not, they’re right upstairs?” Chloe answered looking around for something else to drink. There didn’t appear to be cokes out that she could see.

“Let’s just eat something, make the rounds and call your dad.”

“Okay,” Becca replied. “I hate to have him drive all the way back when he just dropped us off.”

“He told you not to worry about it.”

Becca sighed and popped a small sandwich in her mouth.

They made the rounds, both sipping the punch and noshing. It was after the second turn around that Chloe realized with a pang of discomfort that she didn’t know most of these people. They were teens but some seemed a lot older and almost all of them were either very high, very drunk or both. They passed Kiki in one corner, busy snogging another individual. Chloe couldn’t tell if it was a male or female.

Greg was nowhere to be seen. Chloe was about to tell Becca to call her dad when there was some shouting and a bunch of people started to run up the stairs. “He’s going to jump!” she heard.

Curiosity got the better of her and she followed the crowd up. A bunch of people were clustered at a side window, looking up. There was an outside patio above their heads, on the second floor. Jenn’s home was close to that of their next-door neighbor. Chloe saw to her horror, the neighbor had a pool and apparently, one of the young men from the party was on the patio and was going to dive into the neighbor’s pool. There was a momentary hush, then, a figure flew past. There was a loud Splash! Everyone cheered. Luckily, the kid landed in the pool. Almost immediately, the back door light at the neighbor’s house came on and Chloe could hear a man come out and scream at the kid in the pool. The wife came out in her slippers, a hand-held phone to her ear, talking.

Chloe and Becca pulled away from the window. They were both laughing and saying, “Can you believe it?” Becca was trying to call her dad but between the noise and the being jostled by others, she was having a difficult time.

Suddenly, there were loud sirens coming right down the street toward them.

I wonder if they are going to arrest that guy? Chloe thought to herself.

There was some loud banging on the front door; Jenn’s mother answered it to what looked like a phalanx of cops.

Very much to Chloe’s surprise, she got arrested for being an underage minor consuming alcohol. Also, a number of other people at the party got arrested to include Becca, Greg, Jennifer and Jennifer’s parents.

Two hours later, they were sitting in the hallway at the police station. They had had to give breath-a-lizer samples to the cops.

It was a grim-faced Mr. and Mrs. Thompson who both came to pick-up a sobbing Becca. “I didn’t know, Dad,” she kept saying over and over, as they led her out the door.

Chloe called her parents, and they were on their way to pick her up. Greg eased down into the plastic chair next to hers.

“Some mess, huh?” he asked without looking at her.

“I’ll say,” Chloe, replied, she was still clutching the little pearl evening bag.  “By the way, where were you that whole time that guy was jumping into the pool?” She turned and looked at him. She had picked up a water at the front desk. She played with the cap, opening it an closing it nervously.

“I was on the balcony trying to talk him out of jumping. I kept telling him he could fall short and kill himself. But no, he’s on the school dive team. Said he knew he could make it.”

“Well, he did,” she answered.

“Yeah, he did and now he’ll probably be off the team after a stunt like this.” He leaned forward, resting his big arms on his knees.

“And you?” she asked.

“Well for starters, my dad already told me when I called him, to kiss the car goodbye.”

“Oh, wow,” Chloe stared at him.

“That’s for starters; then this arrest could cost me the water polo scholarship I was almost sure to get. My dad may have to have one of the attorneys at the firm bail me out of this thing.” He stared morosely at the floor.

“Oh, sorry.” Chloe also stared down at the floor. There was a pause. “Greg, did you know there was going to be alcohol at the party?” She glanced over at him.

“Oh, sure. Jenn’s parents have these kinds of parties all the time. Their philosophy is they want their kids drinking at home and not off somewhere else. Why do you think the cops showed up so fast? That neighbor of theirs has just about had it with them and had complained before.”

“Oh, well. That explains a lot of things, I guess.” Chloe leaned her arms against her legs too. They were both quiet for a time.

“And you know the crazy thing?” Greg turned and looked at Chloe.

“What?”

“I don’t even like Jenn that much. She is all about Jenn and her friends, all the time. I doubt she even knows who I am.”

“So, why go out with her?”

“Well, she is cute …” he said carefully, glancing at Chloe, “popular.”

“Hmm.” More silence.

“And her parents do have a killer house.”

“Ah.”

“But, clearly,” he stretched his long arms up and out, “that isn’t everything.” He waved around the station and let out a short laugh. He leaned one hand on the back of her chair.

She nodded still looking at the floor.

“Chloe, I know this is an odd time and maybe the wrong time, but …”

“Yes?” She lifted her head and turned to look at him.

“Would you like to go to a movie or something, coffee?”

Chloe smiled at him. “I really think, Greg Dudenhoeffer, that a movie with the likes of you is going to be a definite No in my household for a while. But coffee? That’s probably doable. She smiled again, and this time she really smiled. He smiled back.

“So, coffee?”

“Starbucks.”

“What day?”

“Wednesday is good.”

“After school?”

“Yes, after school.”

Greg let out a sigh. “Well, you’ll know me as the very tall guy on the bicycle.”

“I think I can hold onto that visual image.” She smirked. He smirked.

Greg was reaching over like he would give her a hug when her father showed up with a face like thunder.

“Greg, Greg Dudenhoeffer? You too? Jesus. What next? Come on Chloe, time to go home.”

Chloe got up to follow her dad. She turned at the last minute before they went out the door to give Greg a little wave. He waved back.

Yes, she thought to herself, this is really going to be my year!

Her mom was waiting in the car and Chloe let herself in the backseat. Her mom started firing questions at her, but her dad put up a stopping hand.

“Phyllis, enough time for that tomorrow. Let’s just get the kid home.”

The kid sat in the back seat wrapped in a warm, fuzzy glow.

The end.

Little Black Book IV

11 Sunday Feb 2024

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Back home that evening, he was looking forward to a nice home cooked meal and maybe some quiet time with his wife and kids. He got into the apartment. It was unusually quiet.

He went over to the breakfast bar and saw a note in Shin’s hand.

‘Robert, the school was having a parent/kid fun night tonight. Know how much you hate those things. We will be gone a couple of hours. Dinner is in the frig.’

He crumbled the note into a tie little ball and threw it hard at the trash can. He went to get himself a beer and turn on the soccer game.

Tuffy, their little white dog, cocked his head at Robert, but kept to his side of the room.

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The rest of the Professor’s week didn’t get much better. He found himself having lunch more and more often by himself. His feelings were like a slow boiling pot.  Alice was avoiding his calls. He was about to throw the phone away. He couldn’t wait for Saturday so he could go fishing.

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The next Saturday dawned bright and clear. Robert pulled his stuff together and barely spoke to his wife in his hurry to get out the door. She stared after the slammed front door and shook her head.

At the marina he buzzed through the bait shop and got a small order of chum. After getting some help with gear, he hustled out. Jumping in the boat, Bob flung a large, padded bag with a handle into the bottom of the craft. He started the engine and when it roared to life he sped out to the sea.

“Mama, why does Pappa want to catch that fish so badly?” One of the girls asked Shin. Shin put down some darning she was doing and looked at the girl.

“Well, there is an old, old story about a fish. A magical fish. Would you like me to tell you about it?”

“Yes, yes!” the older girl cried, and her little sister came running when she heard there would be a story. The hard-wood floors were heated from the bottom. So, comfortable and hugging soft toys, they both sat crossed legged in front of their mother, eager to hear.

“Well,” Shin began to tell them the story of Yeh-Shen, the Chinese Cinderella.                                                         

In a community of cave-dwellers called Wudoung, there was a beautiful girl named Yeh-Shen. She was not only beautiful but kind, and gifted in many skills. In contrast, her half-sister, Jun-li, was plain-looking, selfish and lazy. Both she and her mother envied the attention the father lavished upon Yeh-Shen. Yeh-Shen’s mother had died years before.

Unfortunately, Yeh-Shen’s father died from a great illness and Yeh-Shen was left alone to live with her step-mother and step-sister in poverty.  With her family so reduced and poor, Yeh-Shen was forced to become a lowly servant and work for her scheming stepmother and envious older sister.  Despite living a life burdened with chores and housework, and suffering endless abuse at her stepmother’s hands, she found solace by up befriending a beautiful, 10-foot-long fish in the lake near her home. The fish was a magical fish with golden eyes and scales and talked to her.  The fish was really the guardian spirit of an old man, sent by her mother, who never forgot her daughter, even beyond the grave.

One day, Jun-li, curious about where Yeh-Shen went every day, followed her to the lake. Hiding behind a tree, the step-sister was surprised to see Yeh-Shen talking to the fish. Angry that Yeh-Shen had found happiness, the girl ran quickly home and told her mother everything. The cruel woman tricked Yeh-Shen into giving her the tattered dress she wore. Disguised, the step-mother went to the lake, caught the fish and served it for dinner for herself and Jun-li.

Yeh-Shen was devastated until the spirit of an old man, her ancestor, in a white robe with white hair, appeared and told her to bury the bones of the fish in four pots and hide each pot at the corners under her bed. The spirit also told her that whatever she needed would be granted if she talked to the bones.

Once in a year, the New Year Festival was celebrated. This was the time for the young maidens to meet potential husbands. Not wishing to spoil her own daughter’s chances, the step-mother forced her stepdaughter to remain home and clean their cave-house. After they had left for the festival, Yeh-Shen was visited by the fish’s spirit again. She made a silent wish to the bones and suddenly found herself clothed in a magnificent gown of sea-green silk, a cloak of kingfisher bird feathers and a pair of golden slippers.

Yeh-Shen went to the festival by foot. Admired by everyone, she particularly enjoyed attention from young men who believed her to be a princess. She enjoyed herself until she realized that her step-sister may have recognized her. Quickly she left the festival and in her hurry, accidentally left behind a golden slipper. Arriving home, she hid her finery and the remaining slipper under her bed. The fish bones lay silent now, however, for they had warned Yeh-Shen not to lose even one of her slippers.

Her step family returned from the festival, talking and laughing. They mentioned a mysterious beauty who appeared at the festival. Although Yeh-Shen was sad, she told them nothing of her adventure.

The golden slipper was found by a local peasant. The man, entranced by the beauty and value of the shoe, hurried to the castle of a nearby king, where he felt certain of a reward. The palace guard paid the man a small token and took the shoe to his master.

The king of the To’Han islets, was ruler of a powerful kingdom covering thousands of small islands. Fascinated by the shoe’s small size, the king issued a royal decree to search to find the maiden whose foot fit into the shoe and proclaimed he would marry that girl. The search extended until it reached the community of the cave-dwellers. Every maiden, including Jun-Li, tried the slipper. But, by some magic, it seemed to shrink its size whenever touching a maiden’s foot. Despondent that he could not find the woman he was searching for; the king made a great pavilion and placed the shoe there on display.

Yeh-Shen stole in the pavilion, late at night to try to retrieve her slipper, but was mistaken as a thief. She was then was brought before the king. There she told him everything about her life, how she lost her friend, the gold-eyed fish, and now her slipper. The king, struck by her gentle nature and beauty despite her circumstances, believed her and allowed her to go home with the slipper. The next day, the prince came back to the meager dwelling and claimed the girl and her golden slipper to be his wife. He took her back to the palace and married her. They were happy ever after.

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“So, girls. What did you think of the story?” Shin finally stopped talking and addressed her two daughter who sat in rapture listening.

“Oh, Mom! We loved it!” They both chorused together, eyes shining.

                                                                                  

In the bay area, south of Busan, Robert was about a mile offshore; he stopped the engine and regrouped. He lifted the black, padded bag with a silver logo on the side. Carefully, he unzipped it and pulled the device out. He balanced it with one hand and smiled. Damn! Amazing what you could get on the Internet these days.

In his hand, it shone in the sunlight. Stainless steel, titanium alloy, five feet long, light in the hand. Razor sharp, it was five feet of instant death. A custom made, harpoon, designed mostly for shark dives, the beauty of the thing sent a shiver down his spine.

Robert had tested and retested the nylon rope coil which was attached to a ring at the end of the harpoon. He even had the guy in the bait shop help him test it. He pulled one way, and the little fat guy pulled the other, and the knot held. Bob always prided himself on his sailor’s knots. Another thing he had learned from his overbearing, Navy father.

“A man is as good as his knot.” The old duffer used to say.

“Ha,” Robert laughed out loud. “I got you now, you little bastard. No one calls me stupid and gets away with it.”

He looped the nylon rope around the ring at the prow of the skiff. He pulled on the double knots again and again. They held.

He laid the harpoon in the hull of the boat and pulled out the rod and reel; baited the hook and threw it in. Just a matter of time, he told himself. Just a matter of time.

It wasn’t too long before there was a tug at the line. He carefully started to reel in the line. He just wanted to get the grouper to the top of the water. He wasn’t interested in hooking it anymore. There was a slight tug, some resistance, but he thought, maybe. . .

There was a splash on the surface.

“Hey, asshole. No, you, over here.”

The man whipped his head around and the big grouper was on the exact opposite side of the boat from his line. What?

“You’re never going to catch me, asshole. You don’t have it in ya.”

We’ll see about that, Robert smiled grimly and almost casually reached into the bottom of the boat. He got a grip on the harpoon.

Quickly, he rose up and pulled back his arm and with all his might, threw the harpoon. There was a thud sound.

An “Ah!” cry came from the water and a pool of blood started to form on the top of the water.

“Ha!” Robert called out with glee. Suddenly, the rope coil started to unwind, going down deep into the water. He tried to grab it but it was going too fast and it burned the palms of his hands. “Ow,” he yelled.

The line got tight against the prow of the boat and the boat started to move in the direction of the line.

“Ah, shit!”

The boat was starting to move more rapidly now. He tried to untie the line, but it was too tight and there was no give. The boat was being pulled and was completely out of his control.

He ran over to the back of the boat to the engine and started it. It came to life and then, for no apparent reason, sputtered and died.

“Jesus!” Robert screamed. But the boat was moving away from shore and there was no one to hear him.

The fat guy in the bait shop waited and waited for Robert to return and tie up his boat. The old guy even went out to the pier and peered around for the little craft but could see nothing.

“Ah, well.” He shrugged his shoulders. “He’s a big boy, I guess he knows what he is doing.” He finally turned off the lights to the shop, locked up and went home.

When Robert did not return home that evening, Shin started to get concerned. She called and called to his cell phone but there was no answer. She started to call around to his various teaching buddies and no one had seen him.

By the next afternoon, she was frantic and called the police. They told her she had to come down and made a written report. Reluctantly, she called her mother to come watch the girls and went to the station.

A hunt was undertaken, and the skiff was found, floating, empty, about two miles offshore. There was no Robert Towne, and no one had seen him.

Shin was at the station, or the police were at her apartment every day for two weeks and there was nothing. She started to run out of tears. They were beginning to talk to her about his being ‘legally dead’. She didn’t want to think about that yet. Not yet.

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Continued Part V

The Little Black Book – Part II

09 Friday Feb 2024

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It was Monday and the professor was having lunch with some of the guys at the Korean restaurant close to school. They could walk there and get back for class, no problem.

“I’m telling you it was.”

“Ah, Professor, those glasses need to be checked?” Jack grinned and took a pull on his beer.

“This big,” the professor pulled his very long arms out to demonstrate.

“Bullshit,” the Irishman said. “Those fish don’t even get up in these waters. I think they’re in Australia.” He stabbed some kimchi with his chop sticks.

“The only bullshit around here is that phony Irish accent of yours,” big Al from Chicago replied.

“It ain’t phony,” the Irishman answered. “It’s the real thing. Ask any of the gorls.”

“Speaking of which,” Al speared some noodles, “what happened to your fat girlfriend?”

“Got rid of fat number one and got fat number two,” Irish replied. “Fat girls are always very . . ..”

“Eager?”

“Ready?”

“Willing?”

“Grateful,” Irish said, “and,” he rolled his eyes, “appreciative.” The men all laughed.

“How’s that going with you?” Jack asked the professor with his eyebrows raised.

“I told you not to bring that up,” his boss replied in a low growl.

“Oh, sorry.” Jack flushed pink and took a big swig of beer.

“Anyway,” the professor continued with his fish story, “going out next weekend, anybody wants to go.”

The others shifted uncomfortably and glanced at each other.

“Don’t know, boss, lesson plans, you know.”

“Birthday party.”

“Korean lessons.”

“Whatever.” Robert finished his coke. He didn’t usually drink liquor at lunch. Made him sleepy and off the mark when he got back to the office.

“Time.” The professor tapped on the face of his watch with a finger.

The teachers all hurriedly called to the waitress and settled their bills. They trouped after the boss back to campus.

“Jack, get me those names for the mid-term evaluations. It’s next week.”

“Right, Professor. I’ll get those right over.” Jack turned to go.

The professor grabbed him by the arm.

“And don’t bring up her name again,” he looked tight-lipped at Jack.

“Sure, Professor. My mistake.” A little bead of sweat was on Jack’s upper lip.

Robert let go of his arm and nodded. He turned and went back into the admin building and up the stairs.

I got to use the bathroom, Jack thought to himself.

Upstairs, the Professor stopped at the secretary’s desk and picked up messages. For a Monday it was quiet.

He returned to his office, shut the door and locked it. Sitting at his desk, he opened the middle drawer and pulled out a small phone. He could see there were messages he hadn’t read yet.

He read the messages and smiled. Dialing out, a woman answered on the second ring.

“Hi, it’s me.” The professor lowered his voice.

********

“Yeah, missed you too. You know, stupid birthday parties, work reports. Usual.”

**********

“Yeah, this week. Maybe Thursday. I’ll have the car. No, I’ll drive by the gym. Usual place.”

*********

“I don’t care about your damn hair. Just be ready.”

*********

“No, I do love you. Do not come over here. We talked about that.”

*********

“Maybe I’ll stop by the bookstore just to say hi.”

*********

“If I don’t, will see you on Thursday. Okay, ‘till then.”

*********

He disconnected and then stared at the phone a minute. A smile played on his lips as he thought about her. There really was nothing like a girl in her twenties.

Carefully, he put the phone away and closed the drawer. Getting up he went and unlocked the door. Leaning out, he checked to see if there was anyone in the hall. Just some students. He let out a little breath. Just making the phone calls was half the excitement.

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Back home that evening the Professor told his wife about the staff meeting on Thursday.

“Yeah, these idiots need a lot of training,” he told her.

Shin looked at her husband uncertainly.

“Robert, Thursday is after-school night. Did you forget?”

He looked at her blankly.

“Well, shit. Why do they have to do it on some weird night like Thursday? Don’t they know people are busy. Why not do it on a Monday so it’s easier to remember. God.”

She flinched. “I told you last week about it.”

“Must have slipped my mind. Sorry, darling. I’ll see what I can do. I sent out the memo already. Maybe we can change it.”

She looked down at her paperwork and took a breath.

“Of course, do what you can. They would like you to be there.”

The professor cursed under his breath.

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Robert told his wife he needed a walk and would take the dog. He got the leash and the fluffy white thing they called a canine and went down the stairs.

It was cold and windy outside, and he huddled inside his jacket. He walked as far as the little park down the street from the apartment. His cell was in his pocket. Alice’s number was not on the phone directory, but he knew it by heart.

“.  . . need you to get away on Wednesday instead.”

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“Since when did you have a class on Wednesday? You didn’t tell me about that. Well, how about Friday?”

******

“What the fuck study group?” his voice was starting to rise.

********

“Yes, I know mid-terms are coming. You’re telling me that? Like I don’t know. This is bullshit, Alice. I’m not sure you have your priorities straight.”

*******

“No, don’t apologize. Just figure out who’s important in your life is all.”

********

“No, we’re done. Later.” He hung up the phone with a click. He yanked the dog’s leash and dragged him back to the apartment building.

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That Sunday, Shin was at church with the girls and Robert was down at the marina again. He had gotten that new hook and stopped at the bait shop.

“Yoboseyo, Chin Shi.” He called out.

“Haseyo, Professor Shi,” the bait man replied. “Big fish today?”

Bob nodded. “Need lots of chum today.”

He was over at the refrigerator and pulled out two beers, water and a wrapped Asian roll. He had been in such a hurry to leave home; he had forgotten to stock up.

“Sure, sure.” The bait man, a fat, fifty-something guy with worn and dirty pants and shirt, hurried to fill the bucket.

Bob put down his money.

“Little cold today,” the bait man offered.

Bob yanked his thumb under the lapel of his heavy jacket.

“I’m good.”

“You get that fish today, Professor Shi?”

“Today,” Robert nodded. “Today.” He turned and clumped down to the wharf and threw everything into the skiff and jumped in after.

Sitting in the skiff, he started the engine and undid the rope coil to the dock.

“Today is the day for that little bastard.” He clenched his jaw.

Two hours later, the sun was up in the sky and the warmth was making him sleepy. His line was in the water, and he had caught one small fish. In disgust, he threw it back.

He had eaten the Asian roll and finished off both beers. Hat was tilted over his eyes; Robert was almost dozing off, leaning against the side of the boat as it gently rocked with the current.

There was a soft splash and then some saltwater hit him in the face. He jerked up.

“Hey, asshole.”

Robert yanked up straight and looked wildly around. Was someone trying to get on his boat? Where were they?

“Dickhead, you. Down here.”

He blinked his eyes and then, slowly, leaned over the edge of the boat.

“Jesus!” the man exclaimed.

The grouper was next to his boat, treading water. Robert grabbed his rod.

“Oh, forget that you idiot.”

The rod and reel dropped with a clang to the bottom of the boat. The professor’s eyes got big, and his mouth hung open.

Did that fish just talk to me? He rubbed his eyes with both hands and stared.

“Yes, I did.” The fish seemed to be answering him. “You’re just a real regular idiot, aren’t you? Isn’t that what your father used to call you? Idiot on stork legs?”

Robert’s mouth worked but nothing came out.

“Cat got your tongue, idiot?”

“How-how-how did you. . .?”

“I know a lot of things. A lot of things in general and really a lot of things about you in particular. Like, you’re a real regular asshole. Your wife hates you, your kids are terrified of you, your girlfriend . . . “

“What!” Robert’s head was spinning. A talking fish.

“Yeah. Talking fish. Pretty cool huh? Bet they don’t have that in the States, huh?”

The man sat down hard on the bench.

“What-what-what. . .?”

“What do I want? Well, hum.” The fish swam around a couple of times. “Let me think about that. Maybe I’m feeling generous, and I came to give you a heads up.”

“Heads up?”

“Yeah. Heads up on account of you’re a jerk, buddy. Big time.”

Robert stared at the fish, speechless.

Another squirt of water hit him in the face.

“Hey, wake up. I don’t got all day.”

“So . …?”

“People don’t like you, Professor. Do they? Cause you’re a mean jerk.”

Robert seemed to come to himself.

“No, no. Ah, ah. . .  I run a tight ship is all. A lot of people don’t like that. They have no discipline, no ethics, no moral code. They are used to getting something for nothing and doing nothing for it. I make people earn their money!” The man was starting to get indignant.

“Ah, bullshit. You’re a crap boss and you have all the employees tattling on each other and ratting each other out. All the time, Professor. All the time!”

“How would you know? You’re just a fish. I have built the department up from the ground floor. It was nothing when I got here. I have made something of the place. And the school has never been doing better.”

“You’re fooling yourself, asshole. They tolerate you because you get results. Regardless of the cost.”

“Of course, I get results. I am known for that.” Roberts’s chin went up.

“You’re known for being the biggest asshole around.”

“So, what?” He replied. “We’re getting our funding, and the students are making the grades.”

“And your employees are drinking themselves to death. Did you ever think about that, Professor? Hum? That little, tiny thought ever cross your pea brain?”

“What they drink or don’t drink is not my problem.” Robert was pulling in his line.

“Yeah, well, that’s one way of looking at it.”

“They are adults, they make their own choices,” Robert replied primly.

“I’m getting tired of talking to you, idiot,” the fish replied.

“I don’t know what you expect,” Robert told him.

There was a splash. “As long as you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.” The voice trailed away and with another slap of the tail against the water, the fish disappeared.

Robert stared at where the fish had been.

Am I losing my mind? He thought to himself. About to cast the line again, he decided against it and stowed his gear. Restarting the engine, he headed for shore. Looking back over his shoulder, he could see no sign of the fish.

I am not telling anyone about this, he promised himself, shaking his head. No one.

Continued Part III

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Unrequited

07 Wednesday Feb 2024

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Some romances are more difficult than others.

Courtney Webb

She danced in his strong arms. They whirled around the parquet floor. Fairy lights twinkled above, and she could see flashes of herself in the floor to ceiling plate-glass mirrors.

The Strauss waltz played, and Jane threw her head back the way they had taught her. Her left hand on his shoulder, the right arm up and out to the side, almost rigid. His strong handsome features were above her. His salt and pepper hair glinted in the lights. She didn’t really need to look; she had his face memorized. Nearly seared into her brain, in truth. They spun around and around.

Her new dance shoes were holding up well. Her feet didn’t even hurt. The new dress was  gently used from the top-end resale shop in the area. When one of the girls told her about it. Jane jumped in her old Chevy and zipped down there as soon as possible. She was happy with the purchase. It was clean, fit and the little rhinestones glinted nicely in the semi-dim lights.

Larry, her dance partner, was dressed in his usual all black attire. That is all he ever wore. It suited him Jane decided. It showed off the silver in his hair and the icy blue of his eyes. She couldn’t look into those eyes without haven’t the physical sensation of falling backwards. Wow! He was something. Where had he been her whole life? Tall, strong, handsome, caring. Whew!

There were other people on the dance floor also dancing and others sitting on the cushy benches to the side of the floor. She didn’t care. She didn’t care about anything else in the world. While they were dancing everyone else ceased to exist.

Jane let out a happy sigh. His wife would never know.

Jane was very happy with her new job as a receptionist at the dance school. It was a definite step up from the waitressing she had been doing at the bar and grill. Not that Bistro 30 was a bad place really. The clientele was steady, and the tips were good. It was just…well, the drinking. As Jane sat at the desk sorting receipts she thought back.

                                                            #

Dr. P looked at her intently as she sat on the padded exam table. She shifted uncomfortably on the white paper cover. He stood leaning against the counter, her file in his hands, studying it again. There was a frown on his dark, tanned face. He looked up at her. The black eyes were kind.

Jane really hated that. The kindness. Fuck him! Rich Indian shit with your fancy schools. She called him Dr. P because that is what everyone called him. None of the Americans could start to pronounce the twelve-letter last name. It would have been better if he had been mean to her, harsh. She was used to that. Used to men talking down to her like she was a three-year-old. A stupid three-year-old. Just because she was slight of build and on the short side. With her huge green eyes, men couldn’t help talking to her like she was, what? A life-sized doll?

Jane braced herself. She didn’t like the look on Dr. P’s face. He had ordered an intense series of gastro tests on her. All of which she was sure were unnecessary. It was just a little upset stomach, that’s all. She had them all the time. Some Pepto-bismo and aspirin …

Dr. P coughed and cleared his throat. “So, Jane. We got the test results back. I told you it would take some days, right?”

She nodded. I’m not stupid. Get on with it already.

“It looks like what I thought. Gastritis.”

“Gas what?”

“Gastritis. It’s an inflammation of the stomach lining.”

“Well, so? Can’t you give me something for it and I’ll be on my way?” Jane started to inspect the posters on the wall.

“Ah, well. It’s not quite that simple. I think we discussed this is kind of unusual in a person your age.” He glanced at the file again. “Twenty-nine, I believe.”

She nodded with disinterest.

“Right,” he closed the file. “Also, we touched on the subject of alcohol and how that might be affecting the condition.”

She continued to stare off into middle distance.

The doctor sat down on the exam room chair. “I will have the nurse give you some pamphlets on proper care for you to read at home.” He paused and waited.

“Okay,” she finally said and looked at him. It was obvious he had something else to say.

“Jane, it is important you understand that what you have is not fatal, but it is chronic, and it will not go away on its own. With proper diet and staying completely away from alcohol …” his eyes flicked to her face, “you should see rapid improvement in your symptoms and should be well on your way to being your old self.”

“Okay,” was her monosyllabic response.

Dr. P glanced into the file again. “Ah, did we discuss the amount you have been drinking per day?”

“Yeah, we did. I don’t know for sure. Maybe a couple of beers a day at the bar.”

“Ah, couple of beers,” he studied the file again.

“Look, Dr. P.” Jane was starting to get defensive now. “I’ll follow your dumb plan. I can take the stuff or leave it alone. I’m not an alcoholic, for God’s sake!” She crossed her arms over her chest and frowned.

“Oh, no. No one is suggesting anything.” He smiled at her warmly. “We just want you to get better. Right?”

Jane uncrossed her arms and let them drop into her lap. “Yeah, okay. Right. You’re just trying to help.” She folded her hands together and head down, examined them.

“Exactly,” Dr. P reached out and gave her arm a little pat. “We don’t want this thing progressing into … something … more serious.”

She jerked her head up to look at him.

He smiled again, affably. “Nurse will be in to give you those pamphlets in a minute. I’m leaving a script for those antibiotics we talked about. See you in about two months?”

She nodded her head, face down toward her lap again.

“Fine. See you then.” Dr. P opened the door and closing it behind him, dropped the chart in the metal bin next to the door. He hit the button for the nurse and walked away shaking his head.

Continued Part II

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